The Blood & The Bones

Ever just know you’ll always love someone? And you don’t know why but there’s nothing you can do about it? Because they weren’t what you’d always dreamed of but in the end, they were more.

And, because you know they don’t feel the same, you keep trying to pretend you’re ok…

You pull on the bravest face, you display the strongest smile and you pretend like you’re only looking forward, never back. Partly to appear like you don’t care because you’re a warrior and you’re indestructible and partly because you don’t want them to feel bad because, well, you love them. But, inside your true self aches and hides because it is all a lie and no one, especially them, knows how absolutely devastated you are.. you just can’t let people see you crumble. Not anymore. And you wonder if there will ever be anyone who will get to see the real you? When will the masquerade get to end? Because you don’t want the mask anymore.. you just want to lay your head on a shoulder and be weak for awhile.

It seemed so meant to be this time. Like all the hurt was for this.. this absolute happiness. How did this happen? And why? I just don’t understand. All I can think is what was so wrong with me? Why was I not enough to make you want to stay? Why won’t anyone stay?