The Blood & The Bones

If you look at me now when the day is longer than my spirit. Or the mornings have come too early..

If there is sadness, if my eyes look weary in the light..

Just know that it’s not you that causes this. For you, my love, my son, you are the good in me.

You are the good in everything.

And what you see, that’s not me. It’s the things you cannot see that make me this way. The ugly things you’ll never know about them. Things said, things done, things I’ve protected you from. The things I’ll never tell

No, never. You’ll never have to know how it was hard to keep going when they pushed me back down, when they trampled my name all because I wanted better for you. For me.

You’ll never know the truth of them for that’s my burden to bear and I will not kill your innocence with their darkness.

So, please know that these days are not forever. This too shall pass. Just be the way you’ve always been. And I’ll find the mama that lies beneath

I’ll dig her up, I’ll dig deep down to the depths of despair or wherever she’s hiding, wherever she is telling herself she’s failing, she’s falling, she cannot fight. Wherever her spirit is prying free from. I’ll go there …

And when I find her I’ll say nothing. Not a single word.

I’ll just show her your face and the brightness, the warmth, all off your goodness, your purpose, your intent, your love… it will find her and bring her to the light.

LL~