The Blood & The Bones

Some of us are layers and layers of things most people would never understand. Some of us want more than material things and status and the norm. I don’t want your obligatory kiss on the cheek before we leave to join the mundane rat race and your shallow talk at the dinner table at night, running in the same circles but never in the same circle .. your 4 mins of vanilla sex twice a week and sleep filled with dreams of all the things we never did and never have the drive or will to do waking up, dragging ourselves out of bed to do it all over again. The same fucking life everyday. I’ll suffocate.. I’ll wither. I’m no robot, no stepford wife, no basic girl willing to have her light dimmed because we stopped feeding the fire. No, I want to wake up to you loving me and still to be craved all day, then that passionate I fucking missed your lips and your body and your mind kiss when you see me.. I want laughter in the kitchen and hands that can’t stop reaching for me and talking about the bullshit from your day and what you think is fucked up about the world and how you plan to change .. I want you to ravage me daily.. my mind, body, darkened soul taking me to the brink of the universe every single night. And to lay there after and hear about what haunts you. I want to hear you and heal you while I heal myself. And your arms around me as if tomorrow you may not get to. I want us to never stop trying. To never stop learning. To never stop doing the things we love alone when we need to. I want to make adventures out of everything. I want to never lose all my mystery and for you to never stop exploring me. I don’t want to settle. I don’t want normal. I want stardust, intensity, blood and darkness. I want your sunshine, your thunderstorms, your anger, your joy. I never want it to be perfect. I never want it to be predictable. I refuse to say yes to anything less than everything and that’s my fire.. that’s what I can’t explain to the average, basic person. This is why I need a goddamn immortal warrior and not just a mere man.

LL~