The Blood & The Bones

February is the month of love I guess. And I am stuck wading through it. This time last year I was falling in love with you. And that love changed me so irrevocably. I don’t know where to even go now. Every road leads away from you. And so maybe I stand still. I know that I tried. I tried to move forward. And I ruined some good things by choosing paths I was not prepared to walk down. Am I waiting? Or maybe I am just unable to understand a life without you? What am I without you? But what was I ever with you? I never even really had you, did I? And I think that’s what fucks me up the most. I never even had you but you had all of me. And you didn’t want me.

LL~

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I’ve been listening to so much Benjamin Tod lately. The lyrics resonate so deeply with me. What beautifully somber love stories he tells.  They’ve inspired me a lot too.  I feel the pain in his songs.  And we all know, I am drawn to pain. Some of my favorites are Hungry for You Blues, No One’s Gonna Save Me Now and I Will Never Be Around if you want to experience his loveliness.

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