This time around it wasn’t so much that I had given him yet another chance he didn’t deserve, it was more that I missed out on an opportunity with someone else in order to give him that chance. That night he popped back up, I had plans but I cancelled them for him. I gave him time I wanted to give someone who deserved my attention much more than he did. I don’t know why I did this. I guess I thought, given the circumstances, that it would be different. And I couldn’t even be angry with him because I know who he is. And I know who is not. But, he was familiar and I was pulled to him like a magnet the way I always am to men who end up taking far more than they will ever give.
A man can say he’s sorry only so many times for the same behavior before we have to understand that he isn’t willing to be anything different than what he is. Even if that means you are no longer in his life. He let me leave as if he didn’t care if there was ever to be another time like that for us. And so I made myself a promise that there never would be.
LL
The Blood & The Bones 
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