The Blood & The Bones

an explosion
in slow motion
firing pin
long gone
fingers pressed in
knuckles white
gripping the lever
self
preservation
prolonged
inevitably
grasp fails
and

I have failed
4 seconds

a lifetime
an eternity
knowing
i am the bomb
that destroys everything
but what I did
between
the pulling of the clip
and detonation
i pray is how

they’ll remember me

the blood
& the bones