The Blood & The Bones

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I had never done this before. I know women say this quite frequently but this was not my thing.

But it had been too long since I had been touched. Too long since I felt the fire that desire lights inside me. I wanted to be free from loneliness for just one evening but not tied down by the demands of love that I could not, at this point in my life, meet.

And there he was. Alone too. He was drinking his liquor neat. He smelled like campfire and bay leaves. Like longing and masculinity.. And I could tell just by looking at him that he needed this too. So the guilt that I felt from doing this thing, this thing to serve myself changed into something entirely different. Now I wanted it to give myself to this stranger to soothe his aching.

We made it back to my place. Just a five minute drive but I don’t know how we both remained composed. The energy between us was like lightning bolts.

And he barely said anything but I could tell he knew what it was that I wanted when I said I had better whiskey at home.

Six words. Six words were all we said and he got up and led the way to the street.

And now we are here.

My chest met the cold of the wall before my feet had ever fully felt the planks of the floor.

He kissed my neck first. His hands and mouth were hungry. He barely let me breathe. I thought this man is a wolf. He will devour me and God how I wanted to know what that was like. I wanted to be eaten up. To be overwhelmed by his primal sexuality.

And my own hands pawed at him. It was like I had never felt a man against me before. I wanted him completely inside me in every way.

In the midst of it all, I hear the sound of metal dropping. I turn my head to see his knife had fallen free from his jeans.

Almost at the same time he looks at me and then down at the floor, bending to retrieve it. All one fluid motion while still holding me against the wall it was in his hands. I could tell he had done that many times before.

Breathlessly and cautiously I asked, what do you need that for?

And he said “you’ll see.”

the blood
& the bones