a need.

I can see how, in life, being a controlled impassive male would be beneficial.

I am quite sure the reticent and even restricted man is an easier route to pursue. And how he would think the wisest move is to be one who’s self governance protects him from indulgent pleasure and his heart from softening and inviting hurt beyond the barriers he has so carefully constructed.

I am not asking a man to come away from his reserve altogether.

But I need intensity. I require someone who can come undone. Someone who understands emotional duality.

And even better, a man who cannot restrain or refrain when he experiences my love.. who’s desire is so great he loses all sensibility. I want him to be overcome, for his want of me to become need.

I must have a man who will not hold back from falling all the way into this.. And when he sees me can barely contain the need to push me down and bury himself inside.

I need passion that conquers all else within, that buries fear and suffocates my insecurity. He should endeavor to claim me so assiduously that I could never question my worthiness or he my loyalty.

I understand the need to be sturdy. I have lived so much of my life biased believing stoicism is the key. But when we let go we will drown in this sex and we will flourish in this love. We will become.

I’m not saying it will all be animalistic or rough. There is a softness to ferocity that lines the edges of my love. I have learned to lean into both. I want to show him the apex of opening up.

If he will let it, this love will empower him to be the kind of man who is strong enough to be lost and found at the same time. A man who sinks into the cushion of my touch but can still remain a barrier to the world and it’s evil. A protector who is vulnerable in the arms of the right woman. A man who can let himself be held when needed and take what he has rightfully earned just as easily.

So understand me when I say I get it. And I know it takes all kinds to make the world turn. But I’ll leave the men of guarded overly calculated measure who cannot be penetrated emotionally and wait for one who’s only weakness is me.

the blood
& the bones

#divinemasculine #divinefeminine