Today, I checked in on you the way I used to. I don’t know why.  I need to stop.  I will. I don’t like what I see. I never did. Actually, maybe I do know why.  Because the further I get from you the more I see how absolutely full of lies and bullshit you…

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Remember the plans we made? I meant all of it. I wish that you did too. LL~

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I’m so damaged even if it’s heaven I’ll burn it to the ground and mourn the ashes I no longer know how to be loved LL~ the blood & the bones

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You said they didn’t matter but I saw you searching out the exact same things in them you loved about me. Part of me hopes one of them is the one that makes you stop looking. The one that makes you the happiest. The one that accepts you and your situation the way I did.…

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I stood still With the weight of waiting Crushing me You wouldn’t know You never looked back LL~

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Fuck me til the crazy in me quiets You’re the only one who could feed the beast And calm the thirst for blood Even when it’s for my own LL~

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I’m not one of those writers who wants to make things sound pretty. I want them to sound real. I want to share the grit, the terror, the fucking scabs of life.. I will force feed you heartbreak, happiness and deceit. I write to invoke traumatic deja vu or the smell of your lover dried…

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I wish I could describe this feeling. The betrayal. This confusion. I believed everything you said. I thought I meant so much to you. I thought you really loved me. You didn’t. There is no eloquent, poetic way to put it. You just didn’t. LL~

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Why don’t you miss me? LL~

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You lie to yourself everyday Why should I have ever expected the truth? LL~

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